The thought I've always had is that it should be easier to believe in god. I'm a good person: I don't cheat, steal, hurt people, and I even try to hold back on things like sex. (for personal reasons, none religious) I am just the type of person that always needs to see proof of something. It's how I've always been. I've just always been annoyed, even offended at times, by people that day I'll burn in hell because of that. They seem to always look down on me because I can't follow something I don't believe. I've been raised Christian, and several times, prayed for help during difficult times. It was when I was younger, and hadn't really thought for myself very much. Things never got better. I had to work and work to make things even slightly better. I completely respect all religions that encourage courtesy and kindness, they are a great thing to be a part of. However, this respect is partly keeping me away from church. I'd feel guilty, in a way.
I see we're very similar! Raised Christian, difficult times, staying away from church now, need proof.
When it comes to the Christian faith there can be NO proof. I don't think anyone will ever be able to definitely say that there "is" or there "is not" a God. At the end there are still questions.
I'm more of a science person (Chemistry, the medical field, physics) but I do believe in God. Not because of any proof of existence but more because their is no proof.
One of the main parts of Christianity is faith. In the Bible it says, "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." If anyone finds a way to prove God I will stop believing. At least, scientifically and logically. Part of God is believing when you shouldn't.
So, I don't look for proof. There isn't any. There can't be for "faith" to make sense.
I just look at the "coincidence's" and "miracles" of life. And love. The greatest love and joy I've ever felt in my life (including my many drug trips during high school
) have all been at church retreats. Some may say it's brain washing but I've also felt that alone, in my closet, praying. Placebo effect, insanity, denial of the truth? I don't think so.