My problem with the consciousness 100000 times the size of our sun is that, if consciousness is truly just the interaction between forces and particles, not all consciousness is self aware. In fact, very, very little would be. They would work like a computer: taking in forces, spitting out the according movements and reactions. We can only think because of our brains. Unless there is a physical structure calculating and moving throughout the universe, as big as the universe, I don't believe there could be a god, in the way most people see god. And also: I know you didn't say there is a reason, but there was nothing to say about the alternative. It's always more interesting to go with the idea that requires more thinking, not ending the thoughts. Which, is why I assume all this is real. If this isn't real, if we are just a dream, or in a dream, then what else is there to wonder about? It's much better, imo, to assume this is all real. It's like a maze: why purposely head toward the dead end when there's so much more to explore?
Well, thats not really what I was saying. I didn't mean that this isn't real, and by real, I mean physical. What I meant is that if a 'being' as small as us can move objects, what could a massive 'being' do? I didn't really mean a literal 'dream', more, a manifestation of its own will. The universe, and by 'universe' i mean 'time', expands as the giant sleeps. . . Its a fun little corner of the maze, thats all. Again, its not necessarily my opinion that this is the case, its just fun to explore the idea. Again, I won't really discuss my actual opinions until I talk with someone that has the same information that I do. Wars are fought that way, and people die for this reason.
Something I've been thinking about more than 'god' lately is 'nothing'. And by nothing, I mean the lack of 'all'.
No matter, no time, no space... Nothing. I have a small tattoo to remind me of this often, and I find myself getting even more confused 12 years after I marked myself with it.
I read this article in science magazine regarding 'anti-matter'. Steven Hawking seems to think that in the beginning there was this great collision of matter and anti-matter. I don't have a problem talking about my opinions regarding this, because it does not contend with anyone's beliefs regarding 'god':
My problem with the entire concept of 'anti matter' is that it 'isn't' at all. Its not 'something' in the sense that we think of 'things', in fact, it must be quite the opposite. Its the lack of all things. 'It', is 'nothing'. Try to imagine 'nothing' and out of nothing, comes the universe. Through a pinhole, time, matter, and 'all' comes roaring, expanding, destroying nothing in its path. But where did it come from? I think, Casper, it came from the same place its going: The center of the universe. Try to bear with me on this:
Try to imagine the universe having two parts: one expanding, one collapsing. As one expands, from the pinhole, the other is collapsing into the same pinhole. Try to imagine it looking something like an hour-glass. Its like taking a beach-ball, letting some air out, and twisting it in the middle. As you squeeze one side of it, the air moves into the other side, and visa versa. We already know that time is contingent upon gravity, which is contingent upon matter and mass. So then, what happens when the entire universe has finally been pressed through the pinhole?
Well, 'nothing' is left. Nothing has infinite time and gravity. The entire universe on the other side of the *ahem* beach-ball, is sucked back through the pinhole, and the process repeats itself. . . Forever.
This means, yes, for if only a blink of an eye, the entire universe could actually be the size of a (beach-ball?) as it is "Big Banging" outward again. Thats just fun.
I told my wife this one night and she asked me 'But Evan, what If you could stand outside of the beach-ball and watch the universe expand/contract. 'where' exactly would you be standing? After thinking about it for a long time, my answer is finally this: 'nowhere'. Moreover, IF this was possible, you wouldn't be able to 'see' the universe at all. It doesn't exist in your time. You are, in a hypothetical sense, your very own universe at that moment. You can't see through what does not exist.
Okay, assuming you're still reading, I have another fun bucket-o-popcorn: If the universe is repeating itself over and over again (and please, get the hour-glass picture out of your head now, it doesn't actually look like that)
Does it:
1. Repeat itself exactly as it did before? or
2. Change. Every time, a new and different universe.
Both are fun to explore. for option 1, its fun to think that we will exist, are existing, and have existed, an infinite number of 'times'. (this also helps explain de ja vu!)
For option 2, well, thats just one giant popcorn-ball, baby.